Should’ve known better than to trust her. Or myself, for that matter. At a certain point, I couldn’t even see myself putting up with her words and attitude anymore.
Actually. She’s not changed at all.
I just discovered how false and meaningless my faces, words, actions have always been. So, so false. Not only with my best friend, probably the only person I really cared about, outside of my family. I was always so deceitful, that everyone around me never really knew what I was thinking in my head, because the things I thought didn’t match the words I spoke.
So, the point is that many times I seemed totally fine with what others said and did, but I actually wasn’t. I wonder, if I started showing my real self to others, what would happen.
If I said out loud that
I find her arrogant, that they should all change faculty, that she’s becoming like claustrophobia to me, that no, you are not always right about everything and in life you have to compromise, that you hurt me but I never showed it and that yes, he’s high and mighty at times but I still like him and I don’t carethings like that.
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