But it’s not true.
I strongly believe that with the passing of the time, you’ll be able to nearly forget the bad things happened in the past.
Let’s take mourning, for example. A few people I knew in the past - really important ones - died, and I used to cry over their death almost every night. I still do it nowadays, sometimes, but  it’s different. It’s less frequent, less painful, less everything.

Or about space. That’s the same. Running away won’t do the trick? I’m not sure about that. It’s all a matter of perspective. I think that changing environment is one of the most effective things to do if you want to forget, let’s say a person. Or a bad memory. Or if you want to completely cut ties.

“I don’t need anyone”
“I’m strong”
“I don’t desire any bound”
“Why won’t you leave me alone?”
“Why am I crying? Why am I crying? I’m not weak”

As far as my friends told me, these are just some of the lines I said in front of everyone while I was crying dead drunk.
It’s not that I expect people I don’t even know to remember anything about me, and frankly, I don’t even care.

I was just thinking that the fact I said these things speaks volumes about my state of mind. 

So, basically I’m not growing up just because I’m twenty and I prefer spending my time doing little things instead of doing otherwise?

If I don’t study all the time, if I read manga, if I’m happy because I bought a new book, if I read fanfictions and translate them, if I’m a fujoshi, if I am easily pleased by something so trivial as a fictional story can be, does it mean I haven’t grown up?

I know plenty of people who are much, much older than me and, without doing all this, still are more childish than I think I am.
Aah, if people could learn that growing up isn’t about stated age, what a wonderful world this would be.

•  I am a pragmatic, i’ll rather ask: “Does it work?”, which seems to free me from social conventions and authority;
• to outsiders I may appear full of self-confidence which is basically a barrier;
• what I “do” is what I “know”;
• I’m not good at socializing;
• I’m not good at flirting;
• I tend not to express my feelings; 
• I don’t want others to approach me.

Which basically says that I’m a loner jerk.